Success!!

I am so happy today!!  Today was weigh in day, and I always get a little bit, no a lot bit nervous when I get on the scale each Thursday morning.  I cheated and got on the scale on Tuesday of this week and was really excited by the number I saw, and realized I was only 2lbs away from 50lbs down.  I thought to myself, oh my gosh this could be the week I hit 50, but then my mind goes into sabotage mode and I start to have negative thoughts, like you can't do it, and that number is not right and is going to be higher when you get on the scale on Thursday.  I am trying REALLY hard to get control over the negative me inside my head, but it is not always so easy.  So on Wednesday night I was stuck with a battle in my head of the positive thoughts battling to get the negative ones out.  I am happy to say that the positive won the battle and I went to bed dreaming of the number 50.  I was so scared to get on the scale this morning, I even stayed in bed longer than I should have even though I was awake.  So finally I put on a brave face and grabbed my camera (I take a picture of the scale on weigh in days (sorry not ready to show you the number yet))and headed up stairs to the scale.  I stepped on and closed my eyes for a second.  When I finally looked, I had to do a double take and did not believe what I saw.  10.2lbs down for the week for a total of 52.2lbs gone FOREVER!!  I did it!!  I was so excited I started to jump up and down.  My first thought was I have to tell someone about this.  Unfortunately Tyler was in a work meeting and I couldn't get through to him, so I called my parents, and then I called my coach, then I called a couple friends, then I put it on Facebook, then I finally got a hold of Tyler, anyways, you get it I was excited!!  Having times like these are so important along this journey.  I know I have said it before, but there is nothing easy about losing weight and to have moments like this where I can truly jump for joy just make it that much better.  Thank you to everyone who has celebrated with me today!!